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Well…its already 4.53 in the mornin rite now..came back and lie down on the bed after having outing wiv terence,andrew,thien hoe and victor. However, as i slept today…i think back about my surroundings and realized lots of changes! Well…of coz, there would be good and also the bad ones ler of coz…Well..tho’ i can’t managed to help them but i tried my best as a friend! Well..Some would have got into relationships…i mean brand new relationships and indeed ended up holding their relationship until now and yet they are so strong. Some, would be having so many problems in their relationship yet there are still tolerating and still waiting for some changes in their relationship. The worst part of it, some even loving someone behind and without letting the person knowing that just like one sided loving someone! I can see how pain it is to them and eventually I’m sad to see all this happening among my surrounding of friends! It just hurt me so much! Of coz, someone that had been just started their relationship and I would reli wish them All the best! and stay true to one another! Hope this new relationship would be a brand new start for you! Hope the particular person noe who am i talkin rite now… * wink *.. Discussing back about the ppl who is having difficulties in relationship and one sided relationships…I realised that, some even lost hope in relationships and got cheated so badly and worst part of it some even is using ya knowing that you love them so badly and yet taking you for granted. Love isn’t it supposed to be true and real? I’m thinking about it….what on earth is happening rite now!? Some even having one night stand! Worst of it is…with their very partner’s best friend! No wonder…i now finally realized..its not easy to get someone that u really like and u finally together wiv them and live happily together! u should appreciate them more! Most importantly, Stay true! haha…To be frank, its not easily when u finally get someone that really fall in love and get together! Most people, like what bee leng, my dear and I alwiz discuss in our conversation…alot of people getting together just for the sake of conpanion and got together because there are simply just for someone to be there for them and not because both parties reli fall in love on each other! Which makes me think that, love has become so fragile! Therefore, here…I would really have one big wish for people out there..hmm..for those who’s in relationship..Stay true as i just mentioned just now! most importantly, its deep down ur heart! and all the best!…While those having difficulties rite now, Just strong and u wouldn’t noe whats up in the future rite? true? think positively…and for those who’s having one sided relationship..For goodness sick..be courage and just them know! why would ya wanna keep it by urself…don’t u think its so damn hard when u see someone that u love and like is out there and yet u can’t be with them! you wouldn’t know what would be the outcome..Whether its good or bad…at least u oledi give a try rite? u wouldn’t know that u might stand a chance for that rite? …u wouldn’t know that u might able to take care the person u have been waiting for so long ended up really happy to hear that from you in fact..has been waiting for your approach! There is nothing which is impossible! I belief in miracles and I belief that God would answer my prayer as well that would hope my surrounding friends would guide those who are having difficulties rite now! Think wisely and carefully before really start into a relationship before u got urself hurt and into trouble. keke… Hmm…thats all for now from me! since its been awhile i had not been blogging and suddenly i would have this interest on blogging this! haha…hope this wouldn’t bored you guys over there! *wink*

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Apparently…my sem just started on monday and i’m kinda satisfied with my life over here and finally realise and get satisfied with what i had easily lately…well..after all that is good rite!? Well…during this Christmas, I went to Singapore..Well..its awesome to shop around and hang around wiv my friends back with Ivy and Maple around and do some shopping around and i finally realised that Singapore indeed a good place for me! how i wish i could be there right now studying…maybe the syllabus there would be hard but that is the thing that everyone should bare it right since there would be pros and cons..its a few days trip and i came back ipoh to celebrate my new year with my friends and my bro in Ruums jungle. Well..indeed it was a memorable night for me and indeed was a disaster for me as well.. Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself very much! *wink*. I felt that this year 2007 would be a better year ahead for me. Lets hope that its right shall we!? Not to mention about gambling but at least i felt that I’m much happier with what I had right now..and later on..right after i came down to KL to register my subjects which is on Saturday night. A few buddies were gathered together to celebrate James’s birthday at Ruums. Well..hereby i would just wish James here..All the best in ur future undertakings and u will have all my blessing and support! Not to forget to thank Melvin for all the helps and support that he has been giving me all this while…with all the probs that i had whether its personal or when it comes to clubbing matter! truly appreciated it very much! thanks for everything…Speaking of Melvin.. Terence, Beeleng,Melvin, Rita and I went to setapak to celebrate my close buddies birthday and indeed was a good one..All the best as well my good friend! Comin near future on feb, i’ll be moving to Lagoon Perdana if everything goes smoothly! at least a place which i think would be much better compared staying with the place which i’m practically staying now! Looking forward to it! hehe…Anyway..i guess i better get going! Thats all from me…

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Life…interesting??? It depends on people themeselves to lead how they want it to be after all…Now..at last..I totally understand wat does that mean…If a person wants their life to live in a very interesting…dull..or even simple..everything is in right their very own hand! and that…I totally believed in it..its reli very true! One thing i totally learned from my friends and surrounding of me..Well..no matter how tough the road is..urself would be the one who will enjoy the journey and the path of life of urself..At last..or should say..finally..it ends wiv just answers that you wanted it all along..so thats why..i truly believed that its up to one person to accept it in a very positive or a negative minded..Outsiders would confront you with their opinions would be easy and I totally understand rite now…how it felt…it not easy to take it..i noe..but eventually it ends! Only ourselves could take the pain of it and the sweetness of the memories! ^^ Life is tough! no doubt .. it is! so why not live life to the fullest and just be yourself and i’m sure that it’ll be much better and more comfortable! =)

Love? Can someone reli tells me what is the definition of it?? shouldn’t love be simple and perfect of its own way!? What I’ve realised through what i saw its not the way it means..Its kinda helpless and heartache to see something that the person u wanted to help so badly but unfortunately all u can do is to be alwiz be there for her just what i did just now! Feeling missing and wanted to see might aso causes me to have a very slight chance on what i expected to get ended up getting nothing..lol…sorry yah..i kinda blurred rite now and tired after came back from KL and i really dunno what am i typing over here! Seriously! I do! At least i can express my feelings out and my own secret is always be wiv myself no matter what! At least it has been expressed out here! haha… Sigh…Really speechless about that! Alot of things had made me realised through this whole weekend too when i started to think alot in Terence’s house..Seriously, reli thank him for letting me put up in his place while i really needed this help the most eventho’ he need to take his finals yet he spend most of his time accompany me! really glad and appreciate that! Furthermore, life has to go on no matter what..Just really wish that God would have mercy on me and let me overcome my problems smoothly den i would be really happy and thankful! Furthermore, finals’ results are coming really soon jor..really tension on getting my result! Help! Really can’t help it bcoz this thing is getting inside my head and kinda irritates me! (",) Well..anyway..just wanna express out some of my feelings onli…haha..at least now i feel much better! haha…

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Well…during this whole weekend back in ipoh…alot of things had happened to me or should say something reli bad happened! Well..i aint reli gonna said what it is…but however…they might be some decision that I had made when eventually i had burst out when things reli get worst where i can’t reli take it anymore..However, it feels good that finally i’d get something that i reli wanted for a reli long time..However, feelings can’t changed just like that as I knew myself well..Yes! of coz..I do have the courage to do that however, i’m not sure whether dis would work out for me well in future as definitely i would noe that I had lost someone which is reli important to me in my life and I did hurt her very much but no matter what happens, I reli hope that she would be just realise what I had done is for her benefits! Yes..true enuff..deep inside me..i do hurt myself very much too! this I reli can’t denied that..but den..what can i do after all? Reli clueless…Well..myself doesn’t noe what am i saying after all..just feel kinda confused at this moment!

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Hey everyone! I’m back…Rokz finally is back wiv a recent post of his!! Well..Finals had end for quite some time and I finally get myself some rest…Reli relieved!! haha…Well..currently back in Ipoh to spend some quality time wiv my parents at last…indeed something that din reli think about that it would be so meaningful! haha…Before i came back from Ipoh wiv Melvin.. I went to this club wiv my friends ( Melvin, James, Kei Joe, Thien Hoe, Mabel, Chee Ching, Jean, and Pei Pei ( i guess thats her name ) ) lolz…eventually things get pretty fun there and I really enjoy ourselves…After been so long din club at last…I club happily there…haha…Well..after club…went to Kei Joe and Thien Hoe’s place to overnite due to my place kinda late due to my hostel does hav curfews…so have to "hide" in their place…lolz…ended up can’t reli sleep…i guess its about 2 hours i guess den around 1 drive back ipoh and guess wat..my parents were kinda shocked to see me back ipoh bcoz due to i told them that i’ll back on tues..actually thats the reason..wanna give them a surprise..keke… And now..i’m back Ipoh..Tho’ din go out but at least i got a puppy for me to accompany throughout the whole day ‘hiding’ myself inside my house…haha…If possible..i would reli hope to post up her beautiful and cute pic of her! which is HAPPY! thats her name..dun u think her name is cute!? lolz…Well…just happened to went to find Andrew just now to yum cha…haha!! Hey andrew! Remember what we had just discuss yah…i shall looking forward to see ya soon again..lolz…Oh yea…almost forgotten…my darling mike…gimme a holla when u r back or when u r free aite…I guess thats all for today…i’ll be updating my blog as soon as i have the time! Take care everyone !!! =) Not to forgotten..oi..timmy!! Faster come back..waitin for ya to come back accompany me…lolz…

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Due to lately i have not been reli blog lately…At last i have the chance to write something what i had done during my time back ipoh for about 4 days.. Well..Sad to say that, as soon as I get back Ipoh.. Something bad that i heard from my buddy over there, Melvin which reli makes me sad and worried! Well..Bro…if u reli got something that needed help geh…feel free to find me and i’ll alwiz be there for ya alrite!? =) Talk bout something that makes me kinda excited is eventually i spent some quality time with my bro and Mei Yee lately! haha…As soon as I arrived Ipoh, I went to Bukit Tambun to eat some nice seafood over there! Man..the food there not bad ya noe..next time really must try more wiv my friends..keke…and had a few games of snooker with my bro and Mei Yee!! However, on Monday..my bro went back KL and later went back Singapore on tuesday! Wish them both Rok Seng and Mei Yee take care urself and all the best! Before I move on, I would like to thank my buddies there..Maple, Timmy, James, Mun Ben, Kei Joe, Thien Hoe, JOMS, Weng Fai for making my trip back to Ipoh fully occupied with activities! keke..thank you!! Well, the one that reli made me happy is at least i did experienced back the time playing DotA wiv my friends in Ipoh like Timmy, James, Mun Ben, Kei Joe, Thien Hoe..haha…and later a few games of snooker with JOMS, Weng Fai and Sitt..Well…I guess thats all ler for today…kinda tiring for the whole day driving back subang….and another thing! I miss ya ‘yao cha kuai stuff’ so badly…Thanks Mun Ben! At least this trip back Ipoh reli give me a good remembrance..Looking forward to go back Ipoh more often if possible! haha… Till here! Update the blog soon! [ R o K z ]

Well..Time flies so fast and my trials just right in front of me which is this coming Monday and there is so much for me to follow up! =) However, few days ago..Something terribly bad had happened between Bee Leng and I. It happens till it made me realizes my past! Lol..sad to say that..even in my secondary school life I had miss lots of the fun and excitement that I got! Nevertheless, I didn’t really regret at all of the changes that what I’ve become just for her! However, but it seems that, the changes in me doesn’t seems the thing that I really want anymore! So how, it doesn’t feel that its me will and its not myself anymore.Maybe, it happens that the priority that you want simply just not the way that u think it supposed to be! Lately, I guess that everyone knows that Melvin, Wei Hoe and I had join this SYN’s big organization, which we are partly doing right now is known as the Lampe Berger! Apart of that, a lot of things had happened during the process of joining and until now! Somehow, until to came up into a process of rumours that i heard that Its a SCAM! Well, can’t put the blame for everyone to had such thinking. I totally understand how my friends felt as I guess everyone knows mainly the reason is because of what! Well..as I alwiz told my friends about this, well..things wouldn’t seems to be as what u guys think it is. Each and everyone has different perspective on things! True guys =), its just that Life might be tougher and life has to goes on. Melvin and I lately had lots of things in common to share about and we are totally disagreeing of what had happened lately! Well..Melvin! I totally understand how u felt lately and true to say that its happens to me too! It really makes me frustrated too! =) Bro..feel free to come to me and share about it together with me. Together we can make it better! I know that its hard for both of us bro…but there are alwiz me walking this journey with u together! This is a promise from me bro!

And what had happened lately, Cat! u enlighten me and made me realizes lots of things especially friends! True friends comes within our heart and I’m really glad that you woke me up in my dreams! No matter what had happened lately you are alwiz there to be a good friend which so concern and care about me! Greatly appreciated it very much! As about that! and 2 days ago…i thought back about my past during my secondary school life time when I alwiz have my buddies and friends with me! It was the great and the best moments of life! Well, here..i would like to express my feelings out which has been inside my heart for quite some time and if it really hurts anyone that here I would like to apologize first yah! =)

I would like to start with Weng Fai! Well..remembering the time when I first knew this best friend of mine when I was having tuition with this guy here..I eventually get someone that really close to me and happened to be the closest friend of mine. Throughout the whole secondary school life of mine, he had played a very big role in my life and this guy here had made me changes lots of things. Unfortunately, sad to say that things wouldn’t be so good due to the past that my relationship between Bee Leng and I had apparently made our friendship ruined! and until now, Things wouldn’t be the same anymore and our friendship had gone even worst as both of us knows about it! Well..hereby, i would like to clarify some stuff between both of us! Well..Weng Fai! u were the closest person as a friend or even as a family member of mine..you had been always there to be true to me and that I really knows that! Thank you for being there and no matter what had happens between us..You are the best and the closest friend of mine that i’ve ever had all this long just that the misunderstanding that we had..I wouldn’t dare to make it a point to discuss to make things even better till some misunderstanding between both of us. well..just hope that things would be better and have improvements in future just like the way we used to be when we were apparently small that time..haha! My true buddy! Just like last time when we really shared out everything together which really makes our bond of friendship close!

Besides that, I would like to share towards my feelings towards another 2 good friend of mine which I really concerned about them which is Jonathan Ong and Kee Loon! Hey there! Both of u had been really played and important role in my life! JOMS, Well..I might not noe what had happened between both of us over there which I myself would guess that reason due to some person that I’ve been really close to wiv lately! Nevertheless,JOMs, I had been really treasure our friendship since when I started knowing you until now! you’ve been a true friend to me. Even in future no matter how bad the time is or how things had become in our friendship! u do alwiz have me with you as a friend, buddy and a helper when u really needed help or a listener of ur problems! I’m surely there for ya! While Kee Loon there, haha…Well..I guess and understand everything had happened lately. Just hope that u would understand what i mean Kee Loon. Kee Loon, I have speechless but to say that You are a good friend of mine! but only a sentence would able to express out our friendship between both of us…bro, you are the one that I truly respected and also same goes to the friendship! =)

Another thing, which is a group of friends which I had been known for years during my secondary school life which is Mun Ben, Kei Joe, Dennis, James,Thien Hoe,Kok Seng, Chee Keen,Timmy and the rest (Sorry, if i didn’t mention ur name there!). Mun Ben..during this 10 years of friendship..alot of things had happened between both of us. Just that I would like to say that I treasured this friendship nothing but a true friend! You’ll alwiz have my support and friends for life! As I goes to Kei Joe, it has been lots of misunderstanding since last time between both of us I guess..However, I guess I would like to make some confession about it..Sorry for what had happened last time and I guess the hatred that I had for last time had blinded me until it made our friendship to be worsen! Really sorry for that! =) As for the rest of the gang that I used to DotA with last time…You guys are the best! and I do enjoy the moment we had playing and growing together as friends! Greatly appreciated the friendship!

As for Maple! Hah! How could I forget this person! hehe…A true buddy of mine! Whether its Chi Mui or Heng Tai lar…haha..rite?! Thank you so much being there for me..Since last time, u had been really there to listen to my probs when I’m in deep trouble or when I’m sad! you are alwiz there to concern me. Well..Just to say that, whether no matter how far the distance between both of us! Our friendship still strong and grows as it alwiz does! I am alwiz be there for you my dear buddy! You did bring lots of good memories to me and ntg is far more important our friendship as both of us noes! Friends for life! =) I’ll find ya as soon as I am back Ipoh alrite!? hehe…

As for Reece! Well, lately I had not been seeing him lately due to he has been forwarding his further studies in the Marine field! Well..no matter what had happened between both of us last time. A friend that I’ve lost is far much as a burden for me when I lost a friend like you! Thank you so much for being there and I missed the times that we had last time! haha…

As for Michael! Well..mike,I’m really happy that after all the things that had been happened lately between both of us as been really clarified and clear things up di! Mike, no matter what happens..u know that nothing is far more important than our friendship. You have been a really good accompany when I’m back to Ipoh and u made my life full with excitement and enjoyment! haha…Well..sorry for that day that I went back home without noticing you! Due to I’m in a hurry that day to get myself back to KL! You alwiz have me as a good listener for your problems bro! you have my words! =)

Apparently what I’ve wrote here its not to get any sympathy from any people but the reason I wrote this blog here is the show my appreciation and my feelings towards my friends out there which I guess I should have done it long time ago! Without you guys out there, there wouldn’t be me right now! Thank you so much if it happens to read this blog!

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Well..to all my friends out there!

I’m really happy that at last I got to understand the factors of life which i didn’t realizes it all along! To all my friends that concern about me! seriously! i’m really happy and appreciate it very much that there is still lots of friends out there which is still so caring and concern towards my stuff! Haha…thanks alot! Life wouldn’t be so much easier without you all out there who alwiz be there for me when i’m needed! Greatly appreciated it very much! Thanks!

p/s :- To all my friends out there who read my blog. Thanks alot for spending ur precious time! And aso to those who gave comment in my previous blogs. Greatly appreciated it for your concern towards me! (",)

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Well..what really happens lately!
Seems like alot of things had happened lately on me! Things isn’t really looking that good to me at all..Trials around the corner same goes to other stuff. Well..at least lately..Situations made me changed to come upon this perception that nothing is far more important than family! Yes! True enuff to say that friends are important and plays an important role in my life! Yesterday, I had an outing wiv cat and eventually things that i realizes and she shares her opinion on my problems. I had realizes lots of things as she shares it! Thanks Cat! I owe u alot! Yes…furthermore i come to realizes that its not easy for me after all to changed to another person which is totally an opposite of me! I’ve tried it for about 4 years past until now but somehow i got to realizes that this isn’t the way i should  had become. Maybe things isn’t really look that good to me at this moment! Stress is there after all that i got. Maybe at times i got to do with the effort that you’ve put on and ended up it doesn’t turn out the way it seems to be that leads to disappointment and later on depression! Something that i’ve got to change and time to accept the fact of mine happening lately! Same goes to friendship too! As time grows, no matter how buddies or how a friendship grows last time. Everything doesn’t seems the way it goes anymore! As wat Catherine tolds me.. people might doesn’t appreciate the things due to lots of aspect and reasons as people grows people might think differently and mature as people grows! I guess i finally come to realise that point and its time to have a brand new start! Well…thats all for today I guess since its been some time i didn’t blog di! Later!

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